Health, Food, and Mood

So last night, I totally binged on pastries and sweets. In a dream.

This has never happened before. I have NEVER dreamt about bingeing before last night. It made me wake up feeling horribly guilty and uncomfortable.

Has anyone had this happen to themselves before?

Why hallo thar, health blog of mine!

It’s been a rough couple of weeks. I’ve completely fallen off of the healthy eating and exercise wagon. I have chosen to become a shut-in for finals, the last of which is this coming Thursday.

SO,

This decline in healthy eating and regular exercise ends today.

It’s time to get back to previously healthy lifestyle! I think what I need to do is force myself to go for walks or at least go outside just to get my body moving. I feel like all the gunk I’ve been eating is just SITTING there while *I’m* just SITTING here studying all day long. Bad! I had a good thing going before finals hit, and it’s totally a matter of getting back to it.

I can do it! Baby steps! Weeeee.

Okay.

Okay, okay.

Horrible past few days, either through bingeing, family sickness, and finals. I’ve been feeling bloated and down. But, things are looking up. I can’t let food control me like it has been. I NEED to be in control. Today WILL be a good day. I’m going to spend the day in downtown Toronto with my boyfriend, and I will be sure to make healthy choices while eating out, and drink plenty of water.

I’ve started the day with a big fresh mango and some green tea. I can keep it up. I have to! For me and my well-being!

(Source: silenceisourworstenemy)

Today`s intake:

Breakfast: Toast with peanut butter and smidge of jam (All out of almond butter, sniff!). Grapefruit. Water.

Lunch: Avocado/feta/toasted almond sliver/spring mix salad with a homemade dijon and balsamic vinagrette. Baby carrots on the side. Water. YUUUM.

Post-gym snack: One apple.

Dinner: One sausage from local deli with steamed asparagus.

Snack: One serving size (55g) of dry Kellogg’s Vector Cereal.

Study aid: 1.5oz Bailey’s on ice. Hurrrrrrr.

Total: 1370 calories eaten, 264 calories burned at le gymbo (half hour cardio).

1106 net calories for today.

Today’s intake:

Breakfast: Homemade granola with frozen berries and milk. Water. Tons of tea.

Snack: One rice cake with a tsp of peanut butter spread on it.

Dinner: One sausage and some grilled asparagus. A few of my housemate’s black tiger shrimp.

Snack: Tiny container of granola with a bit of milk.

Yesterday’s intake…BWAGH AGAIN. But not quite as much.

Brek: Made granola that morning. Had some of it with frozen berries and milk.

BUT THEN, work happened…as usual! But this time was much better. I chose the roasted vegetable salad and a few select hors d’oeuvres for my dinner. My downfall was the cheesecake. I only had half a piece, but the whole thing was definitely enough for two people.

Yesterday’s intake, bwaaaghh. Work always gets the best of me. Sheesh!

Breakfast: Toast with almond butter and a grapefruit. Water.

Lunch: Grilled tofu and feta salad with sunflower seeds. YUM. Water.

Dinner: Grilled cheese/avocado/salsa sandwich with rice cake/peanut butter. Water.

BUT THEN, work happened…and I gorged myself with appetizers. It’s hard when we throw out inconceivable amounts of food when it could totally be but to better use. Food bank, anyone? I don’t know how much guacamole, goat cheese, hummus, quesadillas, shrimp, samosas, meatballs, lamb skewers, breads, sushi, and fruit I threw out last night. Enough to feed my house for two weeks.

I felt really bloated and full even 4 hours after I ate, to give you an idea. It’s like I go into a trance or something when I eat that stuff. I’m going back for another shift today. The horror will not be repeated! I got this!I think I’ve found that one of the biggest variables for a good/bad day is how much water I drink. I’ll just have to stay super hydrated and eat mindfully. I’ve been doing so well for the last little bit, so I can definitely keep it up!

Today’s intake…not so good.

Breakfast: Bowl of cereal/granola with 2% milk. Half a lemon cranberry scone on my way out the door since my roommate brought some home for everyone.

Snack: Other half of that scone. Eep. Very buttery and indulgent.

Lunch: MORE cereal. AND toast with peanut butter. And then MORE dry granola afterwards, grrrr.

Snack: Two 35 cal rice cakes with a tbsp peanut butter spread across. Ugh.

Dinner: Mediterranean Chicken Wrap from an on-campus cafe. I would have felt fine about this if I hadn’t gorged myself with sweets and carbs all day. SIGH.

So today was a pretty bad day, eating-wise. I almost binged, but managed to stop myself by relaxing and thinking it over. I was not on top of my game, that’s for sure. BUT tomorrow is another day. I’ll drink tea for the rest of the evening and go for a run tomorrow morning, if it doesn’t SNOW AGAIN!

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